I never thought this would be easy, not by any stretch of the imagination. In fact, I was/am pretty certain that this will be the hardest thing I ever attempt to do. Losing weight isn't really what I'm after, although, it would be a huge perk to be able to shop in normal people stores and not have to special order my bras. What I'm after is a start into health.
With all that in mind, sometimes it is so hard to keep that thought in mind. Especially when I'm feeling overall crappy and about as discouraged as I can feel. No, not about this stuff, it's about other stuff. However, I will say that making this life change is really hard. It's no joke. It's no wonder that people attempt this and fail all the time. I suppose the important part is that I'm truly trying.
I've lost a little over fifteen pounds. I had hit twenty, but then the food festival came this last week, Alabama lost, and just craptacular crap happened and, as I've said before, I eat to feel happy. I was super happy Friday night, happy again Saturday night (then not so happy later), and then regretting everything on Sunday. However, I'm still in the plus column of pounds lost.
I think somewhere along the way I lost my motivation. I don't feel like doing anything. I don't feel like going anywhere. I just want to stay home, curled up in my bed, and have the world just leave me alone. But that's not an option. Every day is a new chance to succeed. And I will succeed. As Gabi says "I got this!"
Here's to a new week and another day. I'm so lucky in that I have so many people behind me, supporting me. I'm so lucky in that my family is doing this and succeeding, too. It's nice not to feel alone in it. Sometimes, I just feels like I'm totally alone and I hate that. And then, tonight, I saw my dad eat a salad for dinner when I know he would have rather had anything else. It made me proud.
So, this is just me, whining because it's haaard. I know it's hard, but sometimes, I just want it to be easy. Like, TADA, you now look like Mila Kunis. And I would be like, "THANK YOU GOD!". But we can't all be Mila Kunis. I just want to stop looking as if I have ingested Mila Kunis.
So, yeah, my whine is over. thanks for listening!
With all that in mind, sometimes it is so hard to keep that thought in mind. Especially when I'm feeling overall crappy and about as discouraged as I can feel. No, not about this stuff, it's about other stuff. However, I will say that making this life change is really hard. It's no joke. It's no wonder that people attempt this and fail all the time. I suppose the important part is that I'm truly trying.
I've lost a little over fifteen pounds. I had hit twenty, but then the food festival came this last week, Alabama lost, and just craptacular crap happened and, as I've said before, I eat to feel happy. I was super happy Friday night, happy again Saturday night (then not so happy later), and then regretting everything on Sunday. However, I'm still in the plus column of pounds lost.
I think somewhere along the way I lost my motivation. I don't feel like doing anything. I don't feel like going anywhere. I just want to stay home, curled up in my bed, and have the world just leave me alone. But that's not an option. Every day is a new chance to succeed. And I will succeed. As Gabi says "I got this!"
Here's to a new week and another day. I'm so lucky in that I have so many people behind me, supporting me. I'm so lucky in that my family is doing this and succeeding, too. It's nice not to feel alone in it. Sometimes, I just feels like I'm totally alone and I hate that. And then, tonight, I saw my dad eat a salad for dinner when I know he would have rather had anything else. It made me proud.
So, this is just me, whining because it's haaard. I know it's hard, but sometimes, I just want it to be easy. Like, TADA, you now look like Mila Kunis. And I would be like, "THANK YOU GOD!". But we can't all be Mila Kunis. I just want to stop looking as if I have ingested Mila Kunis.
So, yeah, my whine is over. thanks for listening!
You are a hoot! I know you're not trying to be funny, but I love you and I know you can do it. I just want to sit and eat a whole chocolate cake, but I don't, so...kudos for me not doing and kudos for me not bringing it in the house. Like you, I wish healthy food tasted as good as bad for you food. It doesn't and that's the reality. So the next time you see a skinny person walk past you, feel sorry for them. They will never know how wonderful chocolate cake and cold milk taste right before bedtime!
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